How the Lord is faithful! I could say it a million times and it still wouldn’t be enough.
This season of my life has been anything but easy. My advice is to not tell God that you’re willing to do something unless you mean it. But I have learned so much and have grown in my walk with Christ along the way that I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
The coolest thing about some of the struggles I’ve overcome and still are overcoming is seeing the power in prayer and how God’s love really is unfailing. Awhile back I told God I was willing to lose everything for Him, so I don’t know why I was so shocked when He asked me to do just that. For a brief period of time I was left with no one to talk to and I felt like I had been stuck in a deserted area and was told to endure this storm by myself. Nothing like this has ever happened to me, so I had no idea what to do. I was further away from God than I thought, and everything was extremely foggy.
It started making sense that the reason everyone was being pulled from my life was because I needed to talk to God. A close friend of mine once told me how the life of his family member had changed after years of constant prayer. Encouraged by this, I constantly prayed for understanding and for certain things to happen over and over again. At first, my “prayers” weren’t prayers though. And what I mean by that is it was mainly me shaking my fist at God and demanding to know why I had to go through this pain. I accused Him of sitting up in Heaven, not doing anything, and just taking pleasure in watching me suffer. But deep-down I knew it wasn’t true, I just wanted someone to blame for the mistakes I had made.
After a week of my “prayers”, I really began to pray. The prayers shifted from me telling God what I wanted to happen to me trusting Him and praying for His will to be done. That statement finished most of my requests. “Please let this happen if it’s according to Your will.” “Please change my heart and random person’s heart to this if it’s Your will.” “Provide me with this if it’s apart of Your will.” I prayed for healing, understanding, peace, and most of all, for God’s will to be done. I still couldn’t feel anything but I kept reading my bible and praying.
In the middle of class a couple of days later, God spoke to my heart. It was undeserving how quick this answered prayer was. And for the first time in a year I felt peace and finally felt like I had something to cling onto ; hope. There was HOPE for my future. Lies I believed about myself and my life were melted by God’s love. I was amazed at how God had so quickly changed my heart and my goals. Also, a prayer for a changed heart had been answered for two of my loved ones since then. I was completely shocked that God could or even would do that for me. How LITTLE my faith was! Did I not trust that the God who created you and me could change a person’s heart?! HOW POWERFUL is my God! These little victories push me forward in my faith. I understand now that the journeys He asks us to take are hard, but there will be JOY and HOPE among the pain! And if that isn’t good news to you then I don’t know what is.
I struggle on a daily basis. My uncle was just diagnosed with cancer. I fight battles that no one knows about. And I struggle with trusting people. But my God is bigger than my biggest struggles and He’s bigger than yours. He’s stronger than the problems that you and I face now and the difficulties that we will face in the future! “I have told you these things so that in ME you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” – John 16:33
So… what are you praying for?